This should get rather interesting...

I'm finding out that things aren't always what they seem. I was going to try and get a bit of work done this weekend, but, it seems that the elements are against me. The car wasn't available for me this weekend, so I only get paid for the 32 hours training and that mileage, and, no gas for me to travel with. This job is necessary, but the human element is the factor here. I'm excited about getting my walking cast tomorrow, not about getting the chewing that's going to come with it, but, if they want to get paid, then I have to go back to work. Seems that some of the people around me don't seem to understand that yes, this is painful, and Yes, weather is going to effect it, and YES, It HAS hurt for the past 3 years!! Seems that folks that haven't had bone pain don't understand why it hurts ofter 2 months, or that it's going to continue to hurt, just less and less, and there will come a time when I can go a entire day without complaining about it aching. O well, maybe if it stops hurting, it won't get noticed for a long time.seems, mine isn't even as important as others. But, this is basically what I signed up for, isn't it. being a human, no one is ever perfect, and everyone thinks they know whats best for you. But, they also expect you to continue to keep cleaning u after them, even if you can't ( or aren't supposed to) put any pressure on a casted limb. OK.ranted, feel better ( we shall see), and I'm off to do the more expected things of me.

The real world is about to rear its UGLY head

well, my last day of training for the government is tomorrow. Thus, I am now an official government employee.The job seems to be interesting enough, and I have no doubt in my mind that I am ready, mentally. But, we have a strong low pressure cell sitting over us as we read, and the ankle isn't doing to well at all. Ive tried everything, Ice, massage, Tylenol, but, no help. I tool one of my " sleep helpers" last night, and my bad leg has restless leg like symptoms. This isn't restless, it's a pinched nerve in my back. The doctor saws that when it hurts when I breath in, or acts like this, it's a nerve. So, Went in with about 5 hours sleep. Thank goodness I can set my own hours for this Job. I am in probably the best group, ( as far as I can tell from the others that is), and the crew lead is absolutely awesome!!Monday morning go in and get my walking boot ( I have to walk for this now job, and a cast is rubbing the skin off the tops pf my toes ( ouch), and I know the doctors going to give me more pain meds, since I will be using it more and in a different way. BUT, Dr. Dan ( my youngerst) did come by and show me a couple things I can do t help aleviate some of the pain dowm further in the cast. With the walking booth though, I can actually get to and rub the area and, once I get it, I will ad a few pics of what I am talking about. AND, if I HAVE t get pain meds, Im asking for some for work, and stronger ones ofr after work. I'm ready to get chewed out for doing this, but I couldmn't pass up a job that pays 14 bucks an hour, even with a cast on my leg, in this economy.

April 24th, 2010

Ok I haven't written in some time now , because I totally forgot I had this already :) Since my last entry, alot of things have happened . We are rolling with the recession, as are alot of other folks, I have had my ankle fused in Feb, and I start working for the government tomorrow, with a cast on my leg, doing a job that requires constant walking. I've been walking on it for the past 3 months, with the cast on it, had to have them stiffen it up asy visit, and I cant wait for that first day I can walk with little or no pain at all. I know its going to hurt, and i accept it. I just don't want to be lumped into that " your in pain, so you need pain meds all the time" type of treatment. I guess when I go to the Doc on the 7th, I'll get my monthly " I can not believe you are walking on it" lecture, and hopefully, a bit of assistance with the pain. I dont want more, I just want to be able to get up and take a step rihgt away, instead of trying to slowly put pressure on it til it's ok, I can deal with his,and after a few steps, I got it.

The Suz reviews: It's a different day

The Suz reviews: It's a different day

Well. this is all new to me so here it goes. I am a anxiety driven, depressd, half broken person who loves living life. I mean, some days are better than others, but what can you expect when I have more metal in my body than I care to mention, and all at my own expense..lol. I'm not very lucky when it comes right down to it, except for my marraige. I met a man who is more concerned with me than what is going on in his world. A first for me really.I tend to attract the worst of the worst, and walk away to tell about it, for some strange reason.